THE STORY OF JOHNNY WHOOPER SWAN We go to school trusting our parents. We meet a teacher there who stands up front with a big desk, and a pointer. She or he trains us in an authoritative manner. We attach mentally to a life long need for authority in order to live lives successfully. Right so far? In my case, at the age of 25 I was ready to enter the practice of law where I hoped for success and a happy life finally. Very shortly, very shortly, I became anxious. There was a foreboding. I was made more uncomfortable with each experience. Law work is nothing like what I was told it would be. The system is corrupt. But I still cling to my expectation that career success is necessary to my happiness as a man. Each day my grasp of what the fuck success amounts to after all becomes more clouded, murkier. I hear songs on the airwaves and at concerts which describe my life as the life of a fool. What am I becoming? I want to rip off my business suit to run naked in the street with my hair on fire! But I am too afraid. In strange, weird (weird comes from a word meaning wise), fragmented steps I go about a journey of my own believing myself to be the first man to have failed in such a total way which journey works so as to break up my career, end a marriage, and start an entirely new way of relating with my two children whom I love deeply. Almost magically I meet a woman who is a career counselor who asserts a beautiful message that I am made to be joyful in my work everyday and at all levels. This understanding sets me on a completely new course. It is no longer a world of systems to me but an undivided one of unlimited beauty. It reminds me of a painting. A true masterpiece. I am drawn from within to learn the truth about my identity and nobody else can teach me that. From this point onward I will use thinking capacity for mastering mechanical processes and follow my heart, which includes my whole nature, which includes your whole nature and that of every human being for all the rest. I’ll go by the name Johnny Whooper Swan who does not explain itself to anyone. By my fruits shall I be known. Watch me soar!

Monday, July 3, 2023

CONCERNING LOVE


If I approach someone with a purpose and a plan to say “I love you” whatever love there was flies away instantly. No love will there be between us. For as long as we spend together we will count the days.  To know love one must be purposeless without plan. Love is not wanting or longing or desire. It is far from “This is the right one for me”. You see, love between people happens when two are one. Or love is just one more idea. The ideas of love are of a thousand kinds and not one of them love. In love, giving and receiving are one, not separate. Love is a dance of mutual affection beyond all thought. To love is a most powerful thing. To be without purpose or plan is a very powerful thing. It amounts to total commitment to true love. No one who has loved would ever say, “look what I have done for you”. That is a parent’s motto or creed. Giving up the concept of parenthood is the dawning of love. 

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