THE STORY OF JOHNNY WHOOPER SWAN We go to school trusting our parents. We meet a teacher there who stands up front with a big desk, and a pointer. She or he trains us in an authoritative manner. We attach mentally to a life long need for authority in order to live lives successfully. Right so far? In my case, at the age of 25 I was ready to enter the practice of law where I hoped for success and a happy life finally. Very shortly, very shortly, I became anxious. There was a foreboding. I was made more uncomfortable with each experience. Law work is nothing like what I was told it would be. The system is corrupt. But I still cling to my expectation that career success is necessary to my happiness as a man. Each day my grasp of what the fuck success amounts to after all becomes more clouded, murkier. I hear songs on the airwaves and at concerts which describe my life as the life of a fool. What am I becoming? I want to rip off my business suit to run naked in the street with my hair on fire! But I am too afraid. In strange, weird (weird comes from a word meaning wise), fragmented steps I go about a journey of my own believing myself to be the first man to have failed in such a total way which journey works so as to break up my career, end a marriage, and start an entirely new way of relating with my two children whom I love deeply. Almost magically I meet a woman who is a career counselor who asserts a beautiful message that I am made to be joyful in my work everyday and at all levels. This understanding sets me on a completely new course. It is no longer a world of systems to me but an undivided one of unlimited beauty. It reminds me of a painting. A true masterpiece. I am drawn from within to learn the truth about my identity and nobody else can teach me that. From this point onward I will use thinking capacity for mastering mechanical processes and follow my heart, which includes my whole nature, which includes your whole nature and that of every human being for all the rest. I’ll go by the name Johnny Whooper Swan who does not explain itself to anyone. By my fruits shall I be known. Watch me soar!

Tuesday, April 19, 2016


Tales o'
the little baby needin' savin'
so he can grow up strong 'n save the nation
parents in captivity on a reservation
slavin' for the man who weighs gold 'n parses out their daily rations (with lash that stings or obedience bonuses in pleasurable sensations) and they named it the land of the free where

everybody wants to save the little children do not agree on how that must be done, where-to- begin
just how best to save someone from the mess that I am in?

Hush! With your hands wrap your babe in a soft blanket then placing the baby softly in its cradle go in secret down alone into the marshes to lower babe- in- cradle down into dark, unexplored rushes growing there by design of the Force of Life, letting an ineffable current present in all times of the year carry away your begotten son or daughter into the care of what you never dare!
Later, there will be time to wonder why you did not care half so much about your self. Please leave me here with this chair when you go as a gift for the next human being who sits 

Tex S Jhonny