THE STORY OF JOHNNY WHOOPER SWAN We go to school trusting our parents. We meet a teacher there who stands up front with a big desk, and a pointer. She or he trains us in an authoritative manner. We attach mentally to a life long need for authority in order to live lives successfully. Right so far? In my case, at the age of 25 I was ready to enter the practice of law where I hoped for success and a happy life finally. Very shortly, very shortly, I became anxious. There was a foreboding. I was made more uncomfortable with each experience. Law work is nothing like what I was told it would be. The system is corrupt. But I still cling to my expectation that career success is necessary to my happiness as a man. Each day my grasp of what the fuck success amounts to after all becomes more clouded, murkier. I hear songs on the airwaves and at concerts which describe my life as the life of a fool. What am I becoming? I want to rip off my business suit to run naked in the street with my hair on fire! But I am too afraid. In strange, weird (weird comes from a word meaning wise), fragmented steps I go about a journey of my own believing myself to be the first man to have failed in such a total way which journey works so as to break up my career, end a marriage, and start an entirely new way of relating with my two children whom I love deeply. Almost magically I meet a woman who is a career counselor who asserts a beautiful message that I am made to be joyful in my work everyday and at all levels. This understanding sets me on a completely new course. It is no longer a world of systems to me but an undivided one of unlimited beauty. It reminds me of a painting. A true masterpiece. I am drawn from within to learn the truth about my identity and nobody else can teach me that. From this point onward I will use thinking capacity for mastering mechanical processes and follow my heart, which includes my whole nature, which includes your whole nature and that of every human being for all the rest. I’ll go by the name Johnny Whooper Swan who does not explain itself to anyone. By my fruits shall I be known. Watch me soar!

Wednesday, January 3, 2018

STUPID CLOUD #2


We tell ourselves we like not having a choice
that we do what we do because we have to,
everybody does. We insist upon it!

We know as children we learned to deny what we truly want
in order to avoid the pain of not getting it. Remember?

We pay pros to convince us we can do no better.
We repeat it to ourselves in mantras of song
Greed gremlins who lick their chops
rub their hands together
laugh their asses off
They see us play along


We dance on cue to a tune played by a non-existent
piper, then
we pay somebody else to get
our kicks for us.
We serve an unseen master
give it names but have no idea how close it is, the bastard
its allure seems irresistible
we listen, charmed, as if...
Who are we?

That mirage told us in secret we had to stand by while
they stole something we didn't need and covered it up.
We went along.

And we have been going along since at a quickened pace.
We are the rabble that watches. But
who are we really?

We are like a lost bunch.
With a map to paradise that we believe to be the true one
who want to go there
but who do not know where we are
so for us the map
is useless
So, instead of going to the trouble of finding out where on that map
we are we just pick any road and follow it and forget the destination.

We know as children we learned to deny what we truly want

in order to avoid the pain of not getting it. Remember?