Godliness
It has come to be
for me that the term God is a
symbol for a phenomenon in
the nature of a living
experience. The feeling is
best described by me as wholeness.
I mean a real experience of being complete. It is a feeling inside
the body who was taught to call itself me or I (as some imaginary
entity that could be held responsible for any errant behavior on the
part of the body in question and correspondingly praised for conduct
approved of by other imaginary personalities with names). All of
which is to realty's dismay at the blatant
and unacceptable mistreatment
of its handiwork. And what
happens is to be rediscovered
by everyone who is born.
By the time I was seven,
it came to be that I was
actually two imaginary creatures co-existing inside the body
aforementioned. And these two were at odds. There arose a war that
lasted for many years up to the age of forty. One of the two was the good
guy respected by the society of other divided goons. The other was a
bad guy who would brook no rules and caused mayhem amidst the goon
world. A way to describe the nature of goon world is to label it a
political world. And
whosoever upsets the
political world without ceasing shall find peace and inherit the
Earth.
A
trick that went unnoticed was that the bad guy was a label
(imaginary) for the actual essence of the being that is
beheld as my
aforementioned body. It has
been called the Shadow Side. This
the first act of evil on the
Planet Earth. And
the liar had dressed itself up as God Imagined. The Phenomenon of
Wholeness would not divide its own world or what is wholeness for?
All the other goons blamed a snake. This the second act of evil (and
actually it amounts
to the same
act of evil as the first and so there is a single evil afoot).
At this, Wholeness flew out the window. Or, did it? It has arisen
and probably never left the body. Probably never died. Probably never
shall die. Wholeness the phenomenon, that is. The Ungraspable Phantom
it is in
the body of a whale and a boy and a girl and a goldfish even. A
rock? Water? Fire? Air?
A
word about forgiveness then.
It was a surprise to discover again that this term is not at all a
performance between a superior being and an inferior being who has
become remorseful enough to bow and scrape before its god and beg to
be given a pass to heaven. It is a matter rather of realizing the
wholeness within a being and correspondingly existent within all
beings, and a simple Oh, my….
That
is my experience. I am seventy now. But what is a number attached to a body to me? Wholeness,
I mean. After all...
