A WHOOPER SWAN'S DIARY: 09/26/22

THE STORY OF JOHNNY WHOOPER SWAN We go to school trusting our parents. We meet a teacher there who stands up front with a big desk, and a pointer. She or he trains us in an authoritative manner. We attach mentally to a life long need for authority in order to live lives successfully. Right so far? In my case, at the age of 25 I was ready to enter the practice of law where I hoped for success and a happy life finally. Very shortly, very shortly, I became anxious. There was a foreboding. I was made more uncomfortable with each experience. Law work is nothing like what I was told it would be. The system is corrupt. But I still cling to my expectation that career success is necessary to my happiness as a man. Each day my grasp of what the fuck success amounts to after all becomes more clouded, murkier. I hear songs on the airwaves and at concerts which describe my life as the life of a fool. What am I becoming? I want to rip off my business suit to run naked in the street with my hair on fire! But I am too afraid. In strange, weird (weird comes from a word meaning wise), fragmented steps I go about a journey of my own believing myself to be the first man to have failed in such a total way which journey works so as to break up my career, end a marriage, and start an entirely new way of relating with my two children whom I love deeply. Almost magically I meet a woman who is a career counselor who asserts a beautiful message that I am made to be joyful in my work everyday and at all levels. This understanding sets me on a completely new course. It is no longer a world of systems to me but an undivided one of unlimited beauty. It reminds me of a painting. A true masterpiece. I am drawn from within to learn the truth about my identity and nobody else can teach me that. From this point onward I will use thinking capacity for mastering mechanical processes and follow my heart, which includes my whole nature, which includes your whole nature and that of every human being for all the rest. I’ll go by the name Johnny Whooper Swan who does not explain itself to anyone. By my fruits shall I be known. Watch me soar!

Monday, September 26, 2022

ON BUSY-NESS

Is it possible to prevail in life by non-conflicting behavior? Action occasioned by that which perceives itself to be the perceived means action of the whole, a pure, non-conflicting action that puts an ending to- “which side are you on?”, does it not?

When a boy I loved playing football with all my heart, not because I wanted to defeat anybody, but for the beautiful wonder of crossing a line in play that led into an all-freeing passion. When coaches (any adult who was going to observe from the point of view of analysis of players) approached our game I walked away. Someone who was not going to throw a block or make a tackle or break an ankle had a motive to take charge in a way that corrupts beauty and that means the exit of love so all that remains is unworthy. And, what is left will attract more and more elements of ugliness and confusion to become another rat race in the world of the great rat fuck. As a child, I played “fighting soldier” in the same way as I played football. No one in my game bled, suffered or died. Then came the rat fuckers.

Anyone ignorant of the possibility of non-conflicting behavior feels driven to take sides. However, I have noticed lately that something of the wholeness buried deep in the minds of all human beings from birth that has so far survived inside the rat race shows up from time to time in it and many are moved by it. Lately, I see more signs of an awareness that there is more to life than winning awards. And, furthermore, that it is worth facing a dragon over and I see more coaches who speak out concerning bringing a change that prevails when all seems lost because that change, when followed, removes even the possibility of losing.

The analysts of the rat race are stumped more and more now in their efforts to explain this change. It is noticed that these games are taking on a new flavor where a coach tells his players this is your game and I want you to play each play to your fullest ability and whatever happens never are you going to think the game is not going your way, just turn your full attention to the next thing up. So long as you remain in this dimension you cannot lose, I promise you.

More and more humans are coming to understand that all troubles have led them to greater awakenings. Trouble brings out the best. Something new becomes possible and that is the award I really sought…the new, the fresh. Then I become aware that loss is in another dimension I have abandoned and no one can explain that. I always was playing football to reach again the dimension of unlimited possibility. Then what was, was freedom as a fact and not just a hope.

When a human being is free they face the dragon because they are not afraid. They walk thru fire because life is worth it.

The writer need say “no more”.