Man's
Search For Subterranean Joy
You tell yourself, I
am not the spiritual person I want to be and I want to become that in
the future. It is concepts of effort and achievement I oppose. I
want you to recognize that achievement of a subterranean joy is
contrary to its plain meaning. It is there or it is not. It is
waiting for you to notice it or it is not. If such a thing is indeed
inside of you it is not far away. If you are handed a gift wrapped in
colored paper with a bow on it do you have to go to a special school
to learn how you can possibly find what that gift happens to be?
Personally, I do not
trust a story about a perfect God who makes people who arrive in need
of a book and a teacher with credentials and membership in a group
who build temples of bricks or stone. It makes more sense to me to
figure the teachers, the books, and the temples have driven innocent
children mad enough to require institutionalization in places where
they can be dressed, fed, and watched.
If you must strive
to overcome something it will be better for you to pay attention to
what you want to stop doing. Try to make the changes you truly want
in your life. Sing the blues when you fail. Someone might hear your
song, listen, and ask you a simple question.
When you have a
thing and do not know you have it, stop searching, you will find. I
mean, of course, really stop searching. Giving up any projection of a
future time when you will have it, be here now. What you will want to
do then may surprise you.
