A WHOOPER SWAN'S DIARY: 09/30/21

THE STORY OF JOHNNY WHOOPER SWAN We go to school trusting our parents. We meet a teacher there who stands up front with a big desk, and a pointer. She or he trains us in an authoritative manner. We attach mentally to a life long need for authority in order to live lives successfully. Right so far? In my case, at the age of 25 I was ready to enter the practice of law where I hoped for success and a happy life finally. Very shortly, very shortly, I became anxious. There was a foreboding. I was made more uncomfortable with each experience. Law work is nothing like what I was told it would be. The system is corrupt. But I still cling to my expectation that career success is necessary to my happiness as a man. Each day my grasp of what the fuck success amounts to after all becomes more clouded, murkier. I hear songs on the airwaves and at concerts which describe my life as the life of a fool. What am I becoming? I want to rip off my business suit to run naked in the street with my hair on fire! But I am too afraid. In strange, weird (weird comes from a word meaning wise), fragmented steps I go about a journey of my own believing myself to be the first man to have failed in such a total way which journey works so as to break up my career, end a marriage, and start an entirely new way of relating with my two children whom I love deeply. Almost magically I meet a woman who is a career counselor who asserts a beautiful message that I am made to be joyful in my work everyday and at all levels. This understanding sets me on a completely new course. It is no longer a world of systems to me but an undivided one of unlimited beauty. It reminds me of a painting. A true masterpiece. I am drawn from within to learn the truth about my identity and nobody else can teach me that. From this point onward I will use thinking capacity for mastering mechanical processes and follow my heart, which includes my whole nature, which includes your whole nature and that of every human being for all the rest. I’ll go by the name Johnny Whooper Swan who does not explain itself to anyone. By my fruits shall I be known. Watch me soar!

Thursday, September 30, 2021

A Separated World

By thought human animals separate things of all kinds. Thought is used as a clever. It is done, it seems, to make life easier to sort and organize and operate within. See, how even life itself is separated from the living creature by the very practice? What the clever does is to make each thinker soon see itself as against the others it has chopped off. Husbands go against wives. Wives go against husbands. Parents go against children. Children go against parents. Christians go against Jews. Capitalists go against Communists. Communists go against capitalists. Rich go against poor. Poor go against rich. On and on and on.

It certainly has become the human way of life. We go against anything we see as a problem. Fight. Fight. FIGHT! is the basis of every system. Good against evil. In the beginning was a Tree. It is so obvious, is it not? Evil is the creation of us all. Could it be this simple? That it is the division within a human being thrust outward that divides all things? So, can one human being look into why he or she is divided within against him or herself and, so, end the conflict inside and out? Of course it can be done! Look into it.