A WHOOPER SWAN'S DIARY: 06/26/23

THE STORY OF JOHNNY WHOOPER SWAN We go to school trusting our parents. We meet a teacher there who stands up front with a big desk, and a pointer. She or he trains us in an authoritative manner. We attach mentally to a life long need for authority in order to live lives successfully. Right so far? In my case, at the age of 25 I was ready to enter the practice of law where I hoped for success and a happy life finally. Very shortly, very shortly, I became anxious. There was a foreboding. I was made more uncomfortable with each experience. Law work is nothing like what I was told it would be. The system is corrupt. But I still cling to my expectation that career success is necessary to my happiness as a man. Each day my grasp of what the fuck success amounts to after all becomes more clouded, murkier. I hear songs on the airwaves and at concerts which describe my life as the life of a fool. What am I becoming? I want to rip off my business suit to run naked in the street with my hair on fire! But I am too afraid. In strange, weird (weird comes from a word meaning wise), fragmented steps I go about a journey of my own believing myself to be the first man to have failed in such a total way which journey works so as to break up my career, end a marriage, and start an entirely new way of relating with my two children whom I love deeply. Almost magically I meet a woman who is a career counselor who asserts a beautiful message that I am made to be joyful in my work everyday and at all levels. This understanding sets me on a completely new course. It is no longer a world of systems to me but an undivided one of unlimited beauty. It reminds me of a painting. A true masterpiece. I am drawn from within to learn the truth about my identity and nobody else can teach me that. From this point onward I will use thinking capacity for mastering mechanical processes and follow my heart, which includes my whole nature, which includes your whole nature and that of every human being for all the rest. I’ll go by the name Johnny Whooper Swan who does not explain itself to anyone. By my fruits shall I be known. Watch me soar!

Monday, June 26, 2023

WHAT CAN ZERO DO FOR YOU?

In the beginning there was reading, writing, and arithmetic. The teacher made it appear to her innocent students that these were separate “things”. That was deceitful. It was done to make her job go by faster, easier and more conveniently at the expense of education. Shame on teacher. Teacher’s excuse (ain’t that funny?) was that she happened to be terrified of the possibility that it is all “zero”? And she and all her acquaintances are absolutely scared to be nothing. Why is that? First, she would be automatically unemployed in need of another way to “scratch for her meat”. What if there is “none”? It is too much for teacher and she is the TEACHER for God’s sake. It is just that kids are born into a world on Earth where all the adults are scared to be “nothing”? Kids have no struggle at all with that, in fact, try to insist on it right up to the point of being kicked out! To a kid, “play” and “nothing” are one thing, hence, the most common answer to “Whatcha doin’ Little Marvin?” One could come to the conclusion that the kids should actually be teaching the adults except it would be unkid like to draw conclusions about anything. Such as that would be way too confining to a young brain. And, if ya did, ya would draw them on the wall. And be punished. The conclusion might be “ALL OTHER NUMBERS ARE CONTAINED IN ZERO!” And only a genius would appreciate that!

All this has been a joy all right but it is arising from a deep urge to push buttons in brains. To get someone’s attention is the best way to put it. Heck, if one person who reads this asks him or herself “what in the world is that 0 doing in the list of numbers anyway? And mean it. The world could change in a brilliant light of awareness.

-Whooper-