A WHOOPER SWAN'S DIARY: 10/19/22

THE STORY OF JOHNNY WHOOPER SWAN We go to school trusting our parents. We meet a teacher there who stands up front with a big desk, and a pointer. She or he trains us in an authoritative manner. We attach mentally to a life long need for authority in order to live lives successfully. Right so far? In my case, at the age of 25 I was ready to enter the practice of law where I hoped for success and a happy life finally. Very shortly, very shortly, I became anxious. There was a foreboding. I was made more uncomfortable with each experience. Law work is nothing like what I was told it would be. The system is corrupt. But I still cling to my expectation that career success is necessary to my happiness as a man. Each day my grasp of what the fuck success amounts to after all becomes more clouded, murkier. I hear songs on the airwaves and at concerts which describe my life as the life of a fool. What am I becoming? I want to rip off my business suit to run naked in the street with my hair on fire! But I am too afraid. In strange, weird (weird comes from a word meaning wise), fragmented steps I go about a journey of my own believing myself to be the first man to have failed in such a total way which journey works so as to break up my career, end a marriage, and start an entirely new way of relating with my two children whom I love deeply. Almost magically I meet a woman who is a career counselor who asserts a beautiful message that I am made to be joyful in my work everyday and at all levels. This understanding sets me on a completely new course. It is no longer a world of systems to me but an undivided one of unlimited beauty. It reminds me of a painting. A true masterpiece. I am drawn from within to learn the truth about my identity and nobody else can teach me that. From this point onward I will use thinking capacity for mastering mechanical processes and follow my heart, which includes my whole nature, which includes your whole nature and that of every human being for all the rest. I’ll go by the name Johnny Whooper Swan who does not explain itself to anyone. By my fruits shall I be known. Watch me soar!

Wednesday, October 19, 2022

LIFE AND DEATH

Now, what we got here for livin’ is life. You might reply to the writer, I’m not stupid, I know it’s life! Well, I say, you do and you don’t. Life, for one thing is not bound by time, is not one straight horizontal line. Naw, Sir! You tryin’ to force it to be that is the source of your fear of death and a lot o’ troubles. And you tryin’ to make death be the end of that horizontal is causin’ a whole lot more. Life and death move together as one thing by a timeless movement. A mouthful. The past and the future are in the now. Life and death are both tremendously vital. In fact, to die while remaining in a living organism is what it is all about. That requires an understanding of death. Death is the ending and the beginning. The most vital thing around the tragic death of a young person is the realization we must not let it be in vain. DYING, THEN, IS LIVING!