A WHOOPER SWAN'S DIARY: 02/06/23

THE STORY OF JOHNNY WHOOPER SWAN We go to school trusting our parents. We meet a teacher there who stands up front with a big desk, and a pointer. She or he trains us in an authoritative manner. We attach mentally to a life long need for authority in order to live lives successfully. Right so far? In my case, at the age of 25 I was ready to enter the practice of law where I hoped for success and a happy life finally. Very shortly, very shortly, I became anxious. There was a foreboding. I was made more uncomfortable with each experience. Law work is nothing like what I was told it would be. The system is corrupt. But I still cling to my expectation that career success is necessary to my happiness as a man. Each day my grasp of what the fuck success amounts to after all becomes more clouded, murkier. I hear songs on the airwaves and at concerts which describe my life as the life of a fool. What am I becoming? I want to rip off my business suit to run naked in the street with my hair on fire! But I am too afraid. In strange, weird (weird comes from a word meaning wise), fragmented steps I go about a journey of my own believing myself to be the first man to have failed in such a total way which journey works so as to break up my career, end a marriage, and start an entirely new way of relating with my two children whom I love deeply. Almost magically I meet a woman who is a career counselor who asserts a beautiful message that I am made to be joyful in my work everyday and at all levels. This understanding sets me on a completely new course. It is no longer a world of systems to me but an undivided one of unlimited beauty. It reminds me of a painting. A true masterpiece. I am drawn from within to learn the truth about my identity and nobody else can teach me that. From this point onward I will use thinking capacity for mastering mechanical processes and follow my heart, which includes my whole nature, which includes your whole nature and that of every human being for all the rest. I’ll go by the name Johnny Whooper Swan who does not explain itself to anyone. By my fruits shall I be known. Watch me soar!

Monday, February 6, 2023

ORDER OR CHAOS?

What need have we of a government from the outside when we have within a perfect governor in the form of moment-to-moment response to the whole of it all? Call it what you will the name is but a symbol for what cannot be measured, compared or copied. Music, as that word is commonly understood is memory. The personality wants to hear that song today we heard yesterday. As such it is old already and dying. What of a music that is new?

From where does it arise? From where then does all music arise? Do we out of fear prefer yesterday’s music over today’s thinking it is security? Could that result in disorder on the outside? Or, could it be laziness as resistance to awakening each morning anew, fresh within, that keeps us in yesterday’s music? Both? Can you see that in such a state we are out of balance and likely to make poor choices?

If so, at that point we become the source of the disorder we complain of and scream for a government from the outside to save us from it. What within us has a vested interest in controlling and limiting us? What separates, measures, and compares? It arises from thought not human nature. That powerful, dynamic fact can be proven by anyone bold enough to test it out in his own life. We need not await others to change. Once a human changes that change will automatically push for a change in others. Find out what every sage knows.

This brings us to see something anew and to respond accordingly. Many times it has been argued that “We do not want to go back to living in caves” when a new song of freedom is heard. Such subterfuge is applicable only to mechanical technologies in the outer world and is used often to try to prevent a new way of seeing what is going on in the outer world from deep within. As in “How many times must a man look up before he sees the sky?” (Bob Dylan “Blowing In The Wind”). Look how little progress humans have made in how we listen to and respond to each other on the Earth. In fact, a good argument can be made that we have been digressing in that category since cave dwelling days. This is important.