LIFE WITHOUT THE IDEAL of a SEPARATION

Ideals are not real. Earlier it was written that the most important belief to which { I am } is committed is I am a separate individual. I must be ambitious. I must compete. I must succeed. I must strive to become more. I have dreams of my own you know. You must see that belief, all belief, is put together by thought and is in conflict with reality and causes all your suffering. See it now. Not later on. Now.

Thinking has brought about a world where everyone is a taker as separate individuals must be . For takers, every act of giving is a taking. They say, “Have a great day” and they do not mean it. They say, “I love you” and do not mean it. They say, “it is my job to teach you humility and compassion” and they do not mean it. They say, “Trust me” and they do not mean it. How could they? Their only job has been to sucker punch you. They have dreams of their own, must be ambitious, must compete, must succeed. The world of man is disgusting. Presidents are criminals. Presidents are murdered. Millions starve. All are lonely. Children are brainwashed, deceived, and used. And all the rest of the mess. 

It is not just that life is only lived now it is that life is only lived when it is only now. That’s the kicker! So, for only now to be experienced you must realize first that you cannot ever know it is only now because you as you know you is made by thought in time. However, you as you do not know you knows that in the present there is the past and the future. That is to say the you you are ignorant about which has not been put together by thinking is aware that the past is memory and not really present and the future is only a  mental projection from memories of a past and so also unreal. All this also means that you must be free from the grip of thinking to actually live. Ask your mind if it can be so? Wait for the answer. For goodness sake do not make up an answer by thinking. Find out whether the mind, left to it, can be aware of itself. And, being aware, can it change itself? You better hope so. 

Suppose you fall in love deeply and then learn that the beloved has been told by doctors he or she is going to die soon. You feel that something terribly wrong has happened. However, the unknown by you you knows this is not bad at all because you can only really live if it is only now with no past and no future. So, even if your sweetheart were to live another 100 years you can only love now. A memory of love is certainly not love…the thoughts ”I love” or “I will love” or “I have loved” are not love. Suddenly, by grace, everybody is seen by you to be in the same boat together with no exception! How does it feel? Free? A bit like something eternal is exposed? Adieu.

 HERE, NOW

Explanations have been the boat on which to cross to the other shore. The man on the other shore says “There is no boat, cross.” 

J. Krishnamurti. 

Home is where you cease finally any escape. Mellow out. An empty MIND is full of energy. To be grounded in love’s way is the incorruptible wilderness. The outer wilderness has been corrupted by man. However, the inner wilderness is the incorruptible. Other notables have spoken of the no boat escape. What you are looking for is what you are. In the 1950’s I was a child and it was so popular then that movies tell of a gentle doctor, always handsome by popular standards, who carried a black medical bag he received upon completing a thorough education. In explanations. 

According to plot, the handsome doctor traveled to a remote area on Earth where savages were the only humans that lived. Or, all people were savages there, strikingly unlike the handsome doctor with his bag of explanations. This was a setup. No what that is? It was especially effective with parents and their children.

At this point, there is no need to discuss yet the plot makers but I point out here that this was aimed at uncorrupted children. The point in time was believed to be the dawning of America, white America, as the dominate force of the whole wide world. The idea was that everywhere that was not America was inhabited by savages, and there was strong evidence to support this theoretical explanation in the aftermath of not one but two world wars in the first half of the century. A child like me was practically defenseless but not really for the simple reason that “there is no boat”. I was incorruptibly there, but did not know it…yet 

Flash forward 40 years. After putting away my particular bag of explanations I was befriended by a desert in West Texas where the Rio Grande takes its mighty bend back to the north. At this place God apparently stored all the rocks left over from the Creation of Earth, metaphorically speaking. Walking alone there over a period of years it came to me that those stories of the handsome, gentle doctor with his bag were a complete hoax perpetrated upon kids. These corrupted kids grew up, rebelled, not aware of what for, then settled for what appeared to be the only opportunity available…the bag of explanations. Even Bob Dylan. In Bob’s case, he did all he could from the first to tell everybody he did not come to explain anything. He simply wrote songs and sang them, as a minstrel. What opened up in the desert written of here was the incorruptible wilderness within us all. You, the reader, for instance. Clearly was the corrupt plot seen. Not by “me”, the black bag of explanations, but seen none the less. According to plot, the handsome doctor always saved the life of the chief’s young son and was worshipped by the savages who had no black bag but wanted one now to replace the medicine man of the tribe. This “holy” guy was always ugly and bitter, according to plot. The explanation was that the sacred is a hoax! And a bitter one, too. Yet, it was suddenly clear to an empty mind in that desert that the plot ignored the fact! The fact is that NO BAG OF EXPLANATIONS EVER HAS HEALED A HUMAN BEING. The savage boy simply healed. And nobody knows what part the medicine man may have played in setting the scene for natural healing.

The first step in any hoax is to plant in the minds of people that they are separate individuals who want to cross a river of ignorance and will definitely need a boat. You can sort this out. In the first place, an individual cannot be divided. There is no river to cross and nobody to cross one. There are many types of desert. Remember, though, there are two ways to die in a desert..too little water and too much water. We need just enough. When that is our truth we harmonize with the incorruptible. You can sort that out. 

At this juncture we are, hopefully, seeing together that what we are taught to believe is “wild” is not at all so, and what we are taught to believe is “civilized” is empty, meaningless chaos with very much suffering. We came here wild gods. We have settled for trivia. We say “have a great day” and we don’t mean it. 

 SYNCHRONIZATION

Naturally, man and woman 

What a phrase to spend time with 

and gain more and more meaning from

Naturally, man and woman born on Earth in tune harmoniously with the rhythm of our home;

the rhythm, the heartbeat, the electric charge-

for every cell, every bone, every muscle every organ is conductive of its sacred current, 

our current

Synchronized!!

He who is de-synchronized can be (and will be now) “mesmerized” into a separate “self” image with duties; duties to please those who possess a use for you…but

it’s alright, Ma, if he cannot please them.

Nothing, now, is sacred!

So, as death’s honesty falls naturally depression grows ’til it drowns them

who knew it all along “something bad is bound to happen”.

 AN INTELLIGENCE WE HAVE BEEN TRAINED TO BETRAY

Suppose for a moment that the words “heart” and “soul” are referring to the same thing and that thing is a certain quiet, still intelligence sensed some of the time which exists in spite of the most important belief to which I am committed which is that I am a separate individual. I must be ambitious. I must compete. I must succeed. I must strive to become more. My question to you, Sir, and Madam, is, do you imagine the possibility that you can exist simultaneously as “separate” and as “Indivisible”? You see, the word “individual” obviously refers to the “indivisible” something that cannot be divided. Look at the word. And yet you are divided! Within yourself you are divided, fragmented. An argument is going on inside of you. It is further suggested that fragmentation is your only real problem for it is the source of them all. The argument among your fragmented parts inside is confusion. Confusion makes every decision go awry. All that makes of life a mess.

Clarity is what we need. Can we have it? It may be we have it but ignore we have it. The “ heart” referred to above is clear. It is without fragmentation. In clarity action is pure, immediate. 

People are easily addicted to sex, for example. Life is difficult for them. We fuck. It felt good to fuck, so, I’ll fuck often with every partner I can exploit. That thought is so limited! You don’t believe that, do you? Here comes the hidden secret. Clarity says, “examine into all the time spent not feeling good to see if the cause of that is a fragmented self. It may be there are more things to do than I can ever imagine that are good for me. Clarity avoids addiction or attachment. It is unlimited and it is open to a whole, unknown Universe where the indivisible awakens with the thought, “hey, another day, I wonder what gifts this one will bring”?

 NATURAL HUMAN BEINGS

When a natural man and a natural woman become so close that they mate and make a baby it has always, from the beginning right up to today, been unquestionably obvious to each parent that they are responsible for the care and upbringing of the child. Each one will walk through the fires of hell for that baby because the child is worth it. This is known in the cells of the their bodies like the need for water and sunshine and is wrapped in an invincible love. 

The above being so, as all agree, why would you say we have come so far from the Garden? Well, it just may have to do with a trick that separated us from each other on the inside breaking the natural bonds of compassion. Notice the term “natural man and natural woman”. From time to time it is shown what that means when a human being reaches out automatically without thought for his own safety to try to save a complete stranger. In those cases, the hero always says “ I had to do it.” 

Here is the point: in all aspects our societies hammer into us a slogan that “you are an individual and that means you are separate from everybody else and must be ambitious and competitive to make your way in the world”. They do not add “the world we made and we direct”. But, it is so. It is obviously so. Yet, it is also obvious that the word “individual” means “not divisible” which is the opposite of “separate” and “ambitious” and “competitive”. Would it interest you to know whether the world (another world) where the term “individual” was coined is still present and open to all free without exception? It is so. It is the natural world. Mother Nature’s dominion.

Notice for yourself how when a human is thinking he is separate from other humans that person, through insecurity, must assume a position of competition. Each such unnatural human watching from a separate point of view sees that nobody else is going to take care of and watch over me because they are separate from me. So, the games people play were invented so each can substitute compassion for the belief he will win. The ultimate game is he who dies with the most toys is the winner! 

Consider this-in such an unnatural world you are bound to strive all your life to do the “right “ thing only to discover at the end that it was all “wrong”. The biggest surprise of life is the discovery “All along I could have done anything fearlessly with no effort at all.”

 INDIVIDUALS       ALONE

Let me shed a light.

There are so many humans on Earth right now who have been mesmerized by the age of seven to believe themselves to be chickens by other chickens. If you get my drift. Here is going to be revealed the sad state of earthlings all over the planet. It is to be told by a former chicken who found grace to remove the spell.

Once there were two terms (symbols for who we are). These two were-

All one

Individual

The meaning was we are NOT SEPARATE. We are actually indivisible. Harmony was our natural condition. We sang and danced as a way of life and they were not used merely to distract us from pain and sorrow for there was none of either. All day every day we supported and cared for each other by every action and all our actions were that for there was no selfishness. Why? There was no division among us. We called it our Garden.

Today, the terms are alone and individual and now mean: completely separate from all others. That change makes no sense. We are each on our own, with no direction home, complete unknowns, like rolling stones. However, (get this) we are commanded by the authorities who came to rule us, because we are in disharmony and a danger to each other now, to work together on projects they (the rulers) choose in shifts each day which they designate to be a workday (most days) and we are ordered to work in programmed patterns taught us by trainers or go hungry. In old age, we are retired, on meager incomes, to wait around and die. It is so obvious that the term “Individual” means flatly INDIVISIBLE (all One ) so how did we get it turned around for all of us and why?

What has been revealed here today is that all your life will be spent doing what is right and every step of the way it will have all been wrong. How does it feel? Is it possible for every human to look honestly inside at how they are living now and end it? YES!

SECRET: It is not love which leads to the institution of marriage (a pattern made by rulers in a failed effort to control disharmony they created as the foundation of their illusory power) but a lack of love.

 REAL COURAGE

If anyone suggests to you in any manner whatsoever that should you choose to join with them in some organized effort and should you be accepted they promise to educate, train, coach, and otherwise prepare you to become a real somebody in the world summon up instantly the raw, real courage from the depths of your being to look them straight in the eye and and reject the offer with upmost dignity and respect and tell them flatly “if you do not see that I am somebody as I am you have nothing to teach me that would not be a waste of my time. I see through your mask and want you to know your plan to condition me for some small part of life you have corrupted so as to serve your ambitions for power through control and domination of others that you personally or your bosses own and control is not to my liking! I prefer to go my own way standing barefoot in the good mud of Earth trusting that which you see not to watch over me as I wander delighted in wonderland. Thank you and good day. ”

To all those who wear masks of membership in some exclusive group with  requirements for membership it appears that wanderers in an unknown land are trusting some craven false idol of their imagination too ignorant to realize the advantages we offer while the actuality is these courageous ones rely upon what abides in the heart closer than the veins in the neck and comes and goes a whole life long with each breath taken. There is no other so loyal, so true. It cannot get any more real.

The writer was from the outset a reluctant joiner. Only did he join what he was forced by law to sign up for. He attended a public school where his name was on the roll. He attended Sunday school up to age 12 but never joined to the dismay of many of his relatives who assured him he was bound for Hell for eternity. But those curses only strengthened his wish to walk alone when he considered how foolish would have been a decision on his part to shrink to a level to gain the approval of a group that would speak to a child in that manner. It is appalling that any human could so twist words up as to make that practice of clear abuse an act of love.  Crazy!

In time, the child grew up in a world that appeared to be completely dominated by countless “groups” competing among each other in violent tones. He searched in it for anyone who might not be hating somebody else but found no one and eventually was dragged down to the level of the mask wearer world. He hated, hated , hated, and finally hated himself. He saw that you get to be President by working hard to get the majority of the mask wearers to vote for you in a weird campaign of lies. It sickened him. He even saw the President murdered serving inside the mask wearing political world. It was years later before he could see how damning of the corrupt world he had become lost in that act was. The boy fought back, but against whom?  All he fought with were wearing many masks as well he discovered. They changed by night like Doctor Jekyll. No cause made any sense.

So, he pleaded within his heart to be helped. Help came. He met in rapid succession many who had been miserable like him who had found a way to live as humans inside an organization of humans that was and was to remain anonymous never to be organized! These ones had what the boy had lost…real courage. 

For many years now the writer has lived a magical life of wonder and fulfillment daily as simply and clearly attentive to each moment. As such, he has wandered the avenues and boulevards of cities blessing the neighborhoods where he walks by his presence. Now, I ask you. Who is more vital and worthy? Such a one as just described or the CEO, Chairman of the Board, majority stock holder and founder of the most wealthy company on the face of the Earth? It is hoped the answer to you, the reader, is clear. If not, that it be clear soon is the writers wish. Do you doubt, for a moment, that one who is devoted enough to be what he is in the face of “PROMOTERS” will go uncared-for by its maker?