THE STORY OF JOHNNY WHOOPER SWAN We go to school trusting our parents. We meet a teacher there who stands up front with a big desk, and a pointer. She or he trains us in an authoritative manner. We attach mentally to a life long need for authority in order to live lives successfully. Right so far? In my case, at the age of 25 I was ready to enter the practice of law where I hoped for success and a happy life finally. Very shortly, very shortly, I became anxious. There was a foreboding. I was made more uncomfortable with each experience. Law work is nothing like what I was told it would be. The system is corrupt. But I still cling to my expectation that career success is necessary to my happiness as a man. Each day my grasp of what the fuck success amounts to after all becomes more clouded, murkier. I hear songs on the airwaves and at concerts which describe my life as the life of a fool. What am I becoming? I want to rip off my business suit to run naked in the street with my hair on fire! But I am too afraid. In strange, weird (weird comes from a word meaning wise), fragmented steps I go about a journey of my own believing myself to be the first man to have failed in such a total way which journey works so as to break up my career, end a marriage, and start an entirely new way of relating with my two children whom I love deeply. Almost magically I meet a woman who is a career counselor who asserts a beautiful message that I am made to be joyful in my work everyday and at all levels. This understanding sets me on a completely new course. It is no longer a world of systems to me but an undivided one of unlimited beauty. It reminds me of a painting. A true masterpiece. I am drawn from within to learn the truth about my identity and nobody else can teach me that. From this point onward I will use thinking capacity for mastering mechanical processes and follow my heart, which includes my whole nature, which includes your whole nature and that of every human being for all the rest. I’ll go by the name Johnny Whooper Swan who does not explain itself to anyone. By my fruits shall I be known. Watch me soar!

Friday, July 1, 2022

 MESMERIZED


We are mesmerizing ourselves in societal jungles made out of imagination. Possibly they were concocted from a first story told in linear time open to interpretation after interpretation that keep minds busy without noticeable movement to agreement after thousands, perhaps millions, of years. Stories are told and retold and men do not live by them. Men go on killing, lying, cheating, hating, discriminating with no end in sight. Look into it. We claim to govern ourselves and each other by some “normal” or “reasonable” standard upon which there is complete disagreement, and always will be, to the point of death. 


Only that which everybody knows is true. This much we all know: we co-exist in hopeless disarray. Always banking on “someday”. There are feuds based only in a story from numerous quite limited memories told and retold with uncontrolled changes by self-centered idiots to other self-centered idiots which last centuries and longer used to justify genocide. Following every crisis, inevitably, without exception, everybody knows it is only a matter of time until the next. Is that not chaotic? Is it not chaotic enough to move someone to change?


What if we were to agree finally to disassemble life in these separate societies fabricated from nonsense and to live instead on the ground of truth; that being, only what nobody denies. At times of disagreement we talk until we reach that true place where disagreement vanishes.


Case: Cain hates, is threatened by, Abel. The two talk until they find agreement then both go on living on that basis. There is always a common ground upon which both will agree. Invariably, will it be seen the conflict has arisen from a matter that has nothing to do with these two but is driving confusion. I was once punched in the nose by a kid I had been tormenting with words. He could take no more. He struck out. I placed blamed on the kid who hit me for years. Later, I saw clearly I was tormenting that kid in order to gain the approval of an older boy who was listening to my words. I wanted to be admired by that older boy who I was attached to as a hero of mine. It had really nothing to do with whether the kid who struck me was right to do so or wrong. My issue was within myself. It will turn out to be that in every argument. Moreover, I saw that the kid who struck me was being tormented by a strong desire within himself for the approval of the same older boy as was I. That is what we are going to discover if we want to live truly more than we want to continue to fight each other. It is so simple, folks. The cause of every disagreement is within us. No bloodshed is required to discover that and each time we do it the relationship between us will be strengthened and new, lasting friendship developed. A Soviet spy was defended by an American lawyer in an American court and in the process a bond developed between these two strangers from different societies so strong each would lay down his life for the other. Each is to be watched over by the other. How strong is that? See film “Bridge Of Spies” Steven Spielberg.

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