An old story

has been told around the earth since the time of Adam and Eve. It goes: There is a white wolf and a black wolf inside of each human being. They are at war. Whichever one I feed is going to win.

If one is going to speak of God, the first thing to be decided is: which God? The God you made up in your mind or the God that created you?

If one is going to answer the quest for who am I? The first question to be decided is: which you? The one you created in your thinking or the one created by God?

After a tragedy the question asked by loved ones of the victims is Why does God permit such awful things to happen? The real question is why did God permit us to go outside and play?

I prefer to tell that it is like there is a two headed wolf and a single headed wolf inside us, whichever we feed is going to be stronger.

War is the consequence of following the instruction from a two headed God. Like a coin. On practically the first page of the Bible it is told that all our troubles right up to today are the consequences of folly. That folly is deciding what is right and what is wrong in a perfect world. What can the True God do? I find it to be so simple to return to the Garden anytime I stray. Give up to love's exact moment as it is.

These are only words. I write this for myself. I write to learn. I write to discover. I write to show that it is all up to me for I am the blessed child of perfection. It began with a simple stabbing statement from a once homeless old woman who had found a graceful way to live. She told me, “God don't make no junk.”

For my part, I want to know for myself. Am I enough? If I am, what have I been waiting for?

Jon Harvey Smith