PERFECT DISILLUSION
Perfect Disillusion. That is the goal. When you see that nothing you are trying to use to get what you want is working you are there. It is the perfect place to be. You are truly blessed. The world will say, Man, you are never happy unless everything in your world is a mess. You will smile inside and know you have been brought again to the place where no other avenues are open to you, so, choiceless, you must embrace completely your secret art, your great hunger. Otherwise, what you call art will be copy-cat bullshit.